when did i stumble

Has it come to this then.

I fell asleep and the world was beautiful..
Your smile was enough..
Your hands knew perfection

In the morning this world has crashed.. this twilight anew
Awash with red.. awash with black.. colours of despair..
And now.. I claw
Find a way back I must.

Your love was a lie..
This life was a farce..and now it's come to this.
Years I knew you.. I thought I knew you
Years I felt you.. I never felt you

Today there's pain, yesterday there was pain.. tomorrow, I fear
How do I walk..how do I smile.. how to take my mind out of this place
Despair I call it.

A loss of senses
A loss of time
Of smiles, of freedom..of knowing myself
Has it come to this

A journey through time..a journey to myself
Where I find myself.
Where I understand..somehow this is bigger than me
Somehow I need to give more than me..
Selfish this life has turned to colours.. and I wonder
What now..
Has it come to this

Pain, hurt..
A new step forward..harder than I ever knew
Plans to be made.. things to see.. life to live
Anew

Awash with gold, light..brightness
Come over me
Make me whole again
Make me see

Take my hand..lead me from this place
Lead me to smile.. once known..now forgotten
Lead me to myself.. once known..now forgotten

Has it come to this afterall.